A few months ago I could have never imagined my life without running. The weeks that I had to stop all together really exposed some nasty things that I did not want to see. This plunged me into horrible moods and I was continually frustrated with each passing day. In my mind everything would be better if I could just simply run. Still I was bothered by the fact that I felt this way at all.
What I am realizing even more now it that I am a person that lives and thrives on goals. Planning my weekly workouts and reaching the starting line of a big event is a true love for me. I just love how this world of so called "weekend warriors" gather and for one day... one event to share in pain, laughter, and all the highs and low that come along the way until you see the finish. Then what??
During this void I found something old that became something new. My bike. Although I rode just a few times with my husband last year it never felt right or felt enjoyable for me. I kept my mind closed to the possibility of truly enjoying the ride at all. Running was the only love that I would focus on. Now I see things differently.
I love running.... I love cycling.... I love yoga... I even love my circuit training. Why not enjoy embarrassing it all? I am an athlete pure and simple. Sure I still have my goal of reaching the finish line of the November MMTR 50++ trail Ultra but this girl is dreaming and I will keep my mind open to anything.
Update: My run tonight (sunday) was AMAZING!!! I felt like I was moving right along. Even once I got home, mapped the run and ran the numbers I could not believe what I saw. So to make extra sure the mileage was right I got in the car and drove it.
Run: 5.5 miles at a 8:11 pace I AM THRILLED AND IT FELT GREAT!!!!